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| Sunday Bloody Sundayyyyyyy |
| 02.29.04 (10:11 pm) [edit] |
"I am not an adventurer by choice but by fate."
Hola everyone...Got the weekend blog stewing up and pictures too! :P
Been like what since Wednesday?
So sowwy... I do love you all I do.
Its just been a crazy week.. and asides from this recap I bring along some good news ...
Well, lets begin where I left off shall we? Wednesday, my day off.. Went to the museum and saw art, it had been so long.. Saw some Renoir, Miro, wow a spectrum of styles and artists, thats just naming a few..it rained like crazy and it was a ton of fun..Took some pictures
Heres the direct link for Wednesday..
[url=http://groups.msn.com/ThePale...][u]Museum Pictures[/u][/url]
So asides from all the normalcy that my life has become, in came a twist. Something from my past washed through and I dont know if its left its mark here. So I wont write about it.. Lets just say I was in my own peace and a storm came through and reopened a wound..
So off to the weekend, and yes I will get to the good news soon I promise..Friday chilled out home and got some things done, talked to an old friend for a long while..Saturday I worked, then same home and got dressed to head out to watch a friends band play, they were freaking awesome, I went by myself, I was proud I actually when out alone.. My friends were workign anyways, but I never go out on my own, but I wasnt gonna miss anymore of his shows again and I promised..it was fun, live music is great..Sat at the bar, had a few drinks, walked to the stage, and I even got a t-shirt! Yeah! Anyways afterwards I went to Lizs and passed out for a while...Then woke up 2 hrs later and drove home to see if the community I used to belong to chat room was open..it was 4 am and I was piss drunk in front of my computer chatting away and on cam..I love you my friends! Muah!
So today, I woke up and Lizs dad was fixing my moms car and he had brought over Lizs younger sister (9) and brother (13).. Let them play Max Payne on my computer and the new demo for Unreal Tournament 2004! That demo rocks!! The kids loved it.. Then I took them out to a italian buffet place and then to Dairy Queen... I had a great day..It was fun..
Teensy cool news, uploaded some new pics to my site in other albums as well.. check them out
[url=http://groups.msn.com/ThePale...][u]New Updated Pictures Click Here[/u][/url]
Partial good news, going to be some major vacationing in April for me, to Kentucky and New York, and possibly a quick trip to Ohio for like a day.. So psyched got my vacation days approved and am organizing the details!
So ok for some extremely good news.. My mom, they said chemo would extend her life.. She had a test done, and, and, they said they actually have shrunk it a bit! Which is like a miracle, it was jsut supposed to stop it, and the state she had it in, there was NO chance for shrinking it at all.. Thank you for all your prayers and healing!
And Im done.. gotta work tommorrow, and again I have my old schedule again with a three hour break in the middle, so if you get bored from one o clock to four call me!
Off to bed!
Goodnight :lol:
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| No Work, All Play, Makes Me A Happy Girl |
| 02.25.04 (8:05 am) [edit] |
"Everyone who has ever built anywhere a ''new heaven'' first found the power thereto in his own hell. "
Hey Ya'll!
Wassup!
Todays my day off, gonna have my fun! Its gonna rock! Anyways, its been coolies as hell lately, celebrated Alans Bday on Monday, it was a chill as hell evening..Had some beer! (Yeah beer people!) and some rumcaked cake, damn too much rum in that cake.. so I came home "Tilted" after the beer and cake..which is what Im gonna spread as a new cool word for getting banged up, wasted, drunk..etc.. So remember people! Its "tilted!" spread the word! Anyways, I am happy happy joy joy today. Also got my etimate back from doing my taxes..Yippie yo kay yay mother.. um..it was good. LOL.. Anyways, so each day, Im getting a little bit closer..
Woke up from a nice dream too..
I had a dream that I was in another city and it was nighttime, and I was snapping away pictures like the feen I already am, and my favorite part in this dream was that I rode an elevator to the top of a building, and I remember standing there, fully clothed and everyone around me was wearing a bathingsuit and had inflatable stuff and shower caps.. When the doors opened it turned out I had been in a helicopter.. I look out, and see how high up we are, above all the buildings, what a crazy view..and on top of the building is this huge pool in the shape of a bathtub! Theres hundreds of people in it, and these huge waves, not dangerous though, everyones having fun.. Nevertheless I step off and go down these long steps and onto the roof.. Where Im looking over the edge and trying to capture an alignment of buildings in a specific way so that its just right. Everytime I look away and look back they're aligned differently but still as beautiful.Anways, I keep looking away and up to the helicopter thats saying it will leave me there all night if I dont hurry. Then I hear my mom and I look next to me, and shes there, but not, transparent even, and she lays her hand on my shoulder and tells me not to worry that they wont leave me..and I take my picture in complete peace.
I wake up.
Ive been listening to the Beatles alot lately, my dad has the whole collection, and I always snag a few..But theres always one I keep in the car.. But above all other songs on this album this is my favorite..
[u]Blackbird: The Beatles[/u]
[i]Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
Blackbird fly blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird fly blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.[/i]
Love you!
Aims :P
P.S.S= Stuart, if you still read this, I want you to click on here : http://heavenlyshades.tblog.c...
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| The Weekend Review |
| 02.22.04 (4:08 pm) [edit] |
"An optimist is a girl who mistakes a bulge for a curve."
So yep yep..Its been a few days, I know..And above all other sad news its Sunday :( .
So much can happen in a week..but you know what? Im in a fantastic mood, and Im def not in the mood for psychological babble bullshit!
So here goes..
Friday I went shopping as I said I would. Went with Liz to the mall and I bought one thing. A little black skirt with pleats and a satin bow ribbon. I love ribbon!! ((Enuff girl..dont you know that guys read this too?))
Ha Ha ha.. so yeah anyways, Im out distracting myself from thinking about certain things.. and lemme tell you, I see someone laughing up there at me sometimes.. I walk into Urban Outfitters and some song comes on and Im bobbing my head and wondering what it is cause it sounds so familiar.. they began playing " Shiny Disco Balls" :? . Which reminded me of one of those list of things I was trying to refrain myself from thinking about..yeah..so I didnt let it get to me,its would've been futile, and a nice point in shopping is because of my cute skirt and that I dropped two sizes..
So for the rest of the afternoon I helped my mom run some errands since her car broke down and I didn’t get a chance to buy my art supplies..but I’ll do that Wednesday, I have that day off too..got some awesome plans for Wednesday already. The rest of the night, I did some productive things instead of sit in front of this thing for hours like Im used to doing..
Saturday morning went to work, worked til five..came home and got all prettied up, ribbon skirt, ribbon heels.. Lizs bday, so she picked out a cool restaurant.. [url=http://www.pfchangs.com/index...][u]P.F Changs[/u][/url] , the food is great there, the ambience is great, and the attention is awesome. They are all over the place in the United States click on the name for a location near you, or just click on it to check it out. Anyways, had a great time talking and and orgasmic cheesecake for the grand finale.. So we wrapped it up there dropped by the house and went to the club to dance the night away, the guys came along too. Of course, Im the only one that actually does any dancing, but I made sure to get my fun out of it, drank my little drinks..Had a few guys come over, talked a little bit with them and thats about it. Single and definitely not looking, and defintely not the type to waste her time nor anyone elses. Im such a lightweight, one green apple martini and two smirnoff's one red and a black and Im soo good! But even tipsy I can tell when I can or cannot drive, and I couldnt..so I handed the keys over and rode shotgun, and while riding shot some pics out the window, and erased a few and ended up deleting all of them..bummer! I was pretty out of it and I remember feeling like a dumbass afterwards..So anyways, crashed there at Lizs.. till..
Sunday, today, woke up and hung out for a while with them and had a nice quiet day of riding through breezy, sunny Miami streets with my dear friends.. Here I am home now, content and smiling, waiting for what the future holds..
Things are going to be alright..
Peace and Love,
Aims
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| 3:30 a.m and Counting = Exhaustion |
| 02.20.04 (12:49 am) [edit] |
" When your hopes are up, your throat is exposed"
--- Sean
Heres a song, and a blog. Combo pack for the madness..
[u]Red Hot Chili Peppers:
Breaking The Girl [/u]
I am a man
Cut from the know
Rarely do friends
Come and then go
She was a girl
Soft but estranged
We were the two
Our lives rearranged
Feeling so good that day
A feeling of love that day
Twisting and turning
Your feelings are burning
You're breaking the girl
She meant you no harm
[chorus]
Think you're so clever
But now you must sever
You're breaking the girl
He loves no one else
Raised by my dad
Girl of the day
He was my man
That was the way
She was the girl
Left alone
Feeling the need
To make me her home
I don't know what when or why
The twilight of love had arrived
Cant fucking sleep, and my room is so clean I dont know what else to do..Been helping my mom out around the house when I come home..been keeping busy.
I was drawing something again, and now it just sits there on my desk waiting for me to pick it up, she stares at me, waiting. Its like the pencil burned my hand and I havent been able to grasp it again.
But I will. You can count on that.
Anyways, so tommorrow (Friday), which is today, I have the day off, and Sat I work til 5. So tommorrow Liz and I are hitting the shops and Im going to buy myself something nice to wear from a nice store, because I deserve it. Besides we are going to go to a cool restaurant for Lizs birthday, and you have to dress nicely so, :P . Liz gets into work at 3 in the afternoon so we are parting ways and Im on my own for the rest of the Friday afternoon and til late. Then Im going to go to an art store and stock up on good drawing materials. That will be the last of me spending anything big for myself. Saturdays is Lizzies birthday! We are getting old..
It seems that the less I write the more people comment, maybe I should write less cause I blab on too long.. Who knows..
My moms doing ok by the way, thank you all for caring so much..We finally had some kind of test done where we find out if all this crap shes going through is worth it..
and it will help me determine a timeframe for my life. Set some goals, organize myself..
Love you guys, thanks for everything :)
Sean & Todd, thanks too..
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| The Good, The Bad & The Fugly |
| 02.17.04 (8:47 pm) [edit] |
"If you can't convince them; confuse them. "
*Strolls in with the tape over her mouth and a crazy smile drawn over it*
((Mumbles on and on))
Translation:
Yo! Wassapening!
Well its been a crazy two days.. One things up anothers down, like a freakin sea saw I tell ya.. Over all Im surviving like I always do. Shit! I dont have a choice, adapt or be adapted. So you know what? Adapting before the change.. Anyways..as far as my fam goes me and my mom had a little chat...She had some analysis done to see if the chemos working, once we find out the results, we'll see what I decide.. As for now...
Step One, I am doing my taxes and all the money is going into a "SaveMe" Account. Which I will also generously deposit more into each time I get paid. Get it? Save me= Savings? :evil: ..Fine..
Step Two, Im totally gonna corner this other guy at work that somehow got my number and has been harassing me ever since and give him a piece of my mind in person, and make a few little threats too.
Step Three, Im going to live my life and BE HAPPY about it. I am a talented,smart,hardworkin g, and cute little independant chic! Whats there not to be happy about?
This clouds not gonna hang over forever.
Good News! Im drawing again..When Im done I'll post it dont worry..
oh and some things as per request of fellow bloggies and friends..( diet questions)
[u]Whats in your fridge?[/u]
Cereals:
Atkins Morning Start Cereal (Banana)
* the others taste like crap!*
Total Protein
*not too bad super high on protein, but is a bit tasteless*
Beverages:
Atkins Ready to Drink Shakes
Diet Sprite
Diet Snapple
Green Tea (Diet)
Low Carb Solutions Shakes
Toast or Bread:
Dutch Country Wheat Bread
*very low on carbs and tastes no diff then reggy bread*
Additives:
Splenda
*Sugar packets that beat Sweet and Lows butt!*
Blue Cheese
Mayo Light
Ketchup
Teriyaki Sauce *Atkins kind*
Cant Believe Its not Butter! Light.
*tastes just as good ;) *
Meats and Veggies:
Chicken (Wings, Thighs)
Shrimpies
Boca Hotdogs, burger patties (vegeterian meat)
Bags of mixed veggies
Deli meats and deli cheeses
Salad
Omega Eggs (organic)
Anyways.. Hope this helps..
*Rips tape off her mouth, bows and strolls out*
:wink: <~~ Has gone mad.>
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| Let It Rain |
| 02.16.04 (8:10 pm) [edit] |
"The aim of life is to live, and to live means to be aware, joyously, drunkenly, serenely, divinely aware. "
Hello to all who read my blog! :o
Well, today has been real. To say the least. I woke up angry and drove outta my driveway like a bat out of hell. After the day has passed I sit around and wonder why I sometimes wake up like that. Perhaps it was a stupid dream I had, sometimes my dreams can sour my milk in the morning.. Must have taken me about seven minutes to get there, and I was listening to "Man in the Box" for the most part of it. Alice in Chains, whoa..anywayssss...
Above all other things, fuck it, on second thought, dont feel like writing about the drama. Not gonna dwell..
This is a song I imagine myself singing along to when I finally arrive to my destination.
[u]Let it Rain : Tracy Chapman[/u]
Let it rain
As I walk these streets unknown
To no one named
Not even myself
When I'm low
Give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Let it go
No mother no father no home
Forget as all others
Have forgotten
When I'm alone
But give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Let it come
Love that lifts me up
Pain that brings me down
Everything I'd ever want and don't
When I'm not strong
But give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Let it rain
Let it flood these streets and wash me away
To where it makes no difference who I am
Or what the future holds
When I don't know
But give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Give me hope
That help is coming
When I need it most
Night, Night..
8)
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| Weekend Recap |
| 02.15.04 (10:05 pm) [edit] |
"Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them. "
Hey all! :lol:
Well yes I did look at the day its Sunday!
So this is the weekend rap up..
Friday I hung with the V's were ltr on trashed and at their crib we watched The Ring and Lost in Translation (which we just couldnt keep watching cause it dragged so badly), and I even tried some pale ale beer. Mind you I hate beer, it brings back not so good memories so, I was proud I actually liked it.. When I asked where it was from they said Oregon..figures 8)
Then I came home after four something cause I wasnt going to be caught dead sleeping over there and being the disturbance for the newly wedded married couple on Valentines Day, even though Dave was sleeping over.. I just knew better..Oh and I read Valentines blog entry off my friend [url=http://weichun.tblog.com/]Weichuns[/url] site ( just click on the name there to the direct link) that brought me to the verge of almost crying..check it out, it made me wonder if everyone realizes their mistakes after their loved one is gone..It was pretty amazing. Lets move on to Saturday now shall we? Alright! On to Saturday!
Anyways, so this year I vowed to make myself happy. This was the first Valentines Day in eight years I spent completely on my own, no friends, no boyfriends, nothing. And it was sweet! I went out to my fav comic book shop and got some new comics to inspire me, and then I went to the mall and bought myself a few tees. Yeah im sure your saying, money cant buy you happiness, money cant, but buying something that makes you feel brand new again and you havent felt that in a while can. It was my turn to shine!
This morning I woke up content and to the sound of raindrops bouncing of my windows, god I love rain..Im only happy when it rains :wink: ..j.k, Im not that negative but I do love rain..
Then it got rocky here at home. My dad was on a phone call with my godmother and he didnt realize it was leaving this message on the machine while he was talking to her. They were talking about my mom and how shes not doing so well and that everyone needs to help..and I overheard him telling her how nor me nor my brother help her. I almost threw a fit, I stormed into my parents bedroom and told him I was listening and that his convo can be heard throughout the entire house. He acted like he didnt care, and gave a poor job of acting like it, he look petrified, I must have been giving him the face Im infamous for when Im angry. Im not going into any details of how much Ive given here, Im not one to brag, but that statement was beyond unfair. So I look at him fiercely and slam the door.
Five minutes later he is knocking on my bedroom door apologizing, kiss my grits buddy, that door remains locked.. So I stayed in here and cried a little bit, cried in anger mostly, and my cousin Guenny was on and she needed someone to talk to. So I turned my attention to her.
She forgot V-day, so badly that when I asked her today how it went she replied "Oh, so thats why he was mad!"..
I love you anyways girl!
After a while I just basically hung around the house and came back to my computer and chatted with my dear friend Seanagles.. where we talked about love and friendship, and life. Oh dear life. He said I appeared numb and he gave me some new found hope with just a few words of encouragement here and there..If there was a thing as an online family, Sean would be my father, I look up to him, he is a talented musician, a great poet, and an amazing artist...Well as a token of gratitude I drew him a portrait while on cam, and he took a screenshot of it..Here it is
[image]OoLostEntity_25066 5221.jpg[/image]
:o ..Anyways, then I went out and had coffee (which I wasnt supposed to have) with an old friend for a bit, and talked even mroe about life,love, etc.. Then relaxed with my bro and watched some flicks made him watch "Rules of Attraction" cause he hadnt seen it, and then we watched some Queer eye...lol..Yeah anyways.. Enough about that..now Im off to tend to my great friends here online waiting to chat with me..
Much love to all!
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| New Look! |
| 02.15.04 (1:46 am) [edit] |
"To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often. "
Finally! I think this is it for a while. Ive been busting my marbles trying to make it look more appealing.. Oh well here it is!! A new sight for sore eyes.
P.S= If anyone knows how I can make the comments part stop having a seizure lemme know!
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| Randomized Thoughts of a Dreamer |
| 02.14.04 (2:08 am) [edit] |
"You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you. "
Just sitting here in my room, thinking, wishing, dreaming of a "thousand" things.
Happy Valentines Day everyone!
This is going out to married people, single people, everyone. As long as you have the power to love, celebrate it. Its not set in stone that Valentines Day is just for the romantic couple kind of love.
I have Saturday and Sunday off and I plan on celebrating today by giving my love to my family, my friends, and to everyone, even myself!! Maybe go out and buy something real nice just for me.
My mind keeps drifting towards my questions. Those questions in your mind your so used to asking you dont realize your asking, until ultimately, you begin to answer.
My mind takes me mostly back to all the friends and loves and people Ive met throughout my entire life. Whoa, so much change, so much happiness, so much drama. We are all spread out amongst the earth now living our lives as adults.
Life is what you make of it.
You can either stay home and feel sorry for yourself or you can actually DO something about it. If you decide to live in the shit hole town youve lived in all your life and spend the rest of your life living in it and it makes you happy living it, more power to ya. If not, your just as guilty to blame yourself as easy as it is easy to concoct and throw fault to something other than yourself.
Yes making choices doesnt come easy. But it comes to a point where we all have to make sacrifices in order to make ourselves happy, to be selfish to oneself. To make your own plans for YOUR life.
I keep waiting for a breaking point. Something that will make me leap and not look back, and Im wishing it will magicallly shove me, and soon, so I dont have to do any of the work this time.
Just give me some time to plot and I'll show you what I mean...Wish me luck.
:wink:
*need to vent? feel free*
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| Angirl Management |
| 02.12.04 (6:49 pm) [edit] |
"You gotta get out & grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. Get out and kick some ass"
Ever had days where your just pissed off and dont want to be ____ with?
This is one of those days. Im just mad for no reason. Everything and everyone is just irritating the ____ outta me. I just pray no one pushes my buttons for the rest of the evening, and thank god I had a mute button on my phone at work all day.
Does anyone have a gallon of soap to wash my mouth out with?
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| .: The Young and the Foolish :. |
| 02.11.04 (9:35 pm) [edit] |
"While intelligent people can often simplify the complex, a fool is more likely to complicate the simple. "
Just another day living in the hood, wait a tick, I dont live in the hood ..well this isnt the hood so :lol: ..
Anyways, sometimes I want to blog, but I dont have crap to blog about..so um here goes.
So this morning it was the normal routine,I am awoken in the middle of dreamn by my father whos all like "despiertate michi!" and Im all "yeaaaaaaah ok, Im coming.. *ZzzZZZzZZ*" hes "Michi! Despierta!"
Im "yes daddy Im getting up.. *zZZzZZZ*" hes "MICHI!!"
*crap, just a few more minutes if I could just... "MICHI!" Oh crap, get up you lazy ass!* and its up and at em for this girl.
Its kinda funny, my dads a weird guy, he can be pissed off in a second and totally loving the next.
Whats not funny is that morning traffic I hit when Im on my way back..
Monday (of all days, I hate Mondays) a ride to work that takes 9 minutes *cough*hitting 80 *cough* took me and hour and thirty minutes. On a five lane highway at 9:30 am they decide to close three lanes! Whos genius idea was that! Man was I pissed and cranky as hell. Also, craving a cigarette like a madwoman.. But it didnt spoil my day, it would take alot more than that.
Anyways, works been pretty chill, Ive been meeting my objectives..and I made some people laugh today by standing up against the glass window and yelling at the airplanes to come get me..I always make an ass out of myself, it takes everyone out of the daily blah..
We also had a entertaining chat when someone asked "Do you believe that there really is one person out there thats your soulmate?".. Add gas to the flame that is woman in my office and its a true inferno.
Everyone agreed on yes, and everyone shared their sob stories, mines isnt a sob story, its just life and karma. So my story just made everyone think and they even tried to convince me to call him..Hells no, no way in hell, that fire is vanquished and the vapor has lifted! If him and I got to talking we could easily agree that it just would never have truly worked we might have shared the same hobbies but as for our paths, too different, I see the whole world as a destination as for him.. well..lets just say not.
Enough about love, yeck.. Love shmuv, screw that :twisted: !!
Im the ebenezer scroogess about love lately. Im flattered by all the new suitors but thanks and no thanks. Try me again next month maybe, we'll see how I feel then.
Todays new question:
Why do people talk to me all the time, everywhere I go?
Out in public, Im a magnet for strangers.
At work, in the elevator, at the gas station, and the latest at walmart!
Im there and this guy walks up to me with a list and starts asking me what the ingredients are just like he knew me or something!! Then I point out a few items and go on, and he keeps on finding me, and even has the audacity to ask me if he can use my cell to call and ask someone. Heres a tip people!! Never let anyone use your cell phone, especially if your a woman, they are most likely to call you after they've gone home and written the number down off of caller id.
After that I have some asian tourist guy that looks straight out of a godzilla movie asking me if he can skip, he had like two items, so I didnt care. Like I care about those stupid people in the line looking at me with the evil eye. Im never gonna see them again anyways.
The lady behind me with kids asking me to watch them for her, which was ok cause kids dont scare me, I can train them with a snap of my little finger, after a while she even got as comfortable as to asking me to go get her some tylenol..
The lines there are horrendous all the time! Today its took about 40 mins at around 8:00p.m .Even at 2:00 am on a weekday that place is packed!!
I got out alive and later on even got my daddy some new shoes, which he loved and hes not an easy man to buy something for..
Im such a daddys girl.. Well thats all for now.. Im exhausted and Ive been chatting with four people on messenger writing this for what seems and feels like hours now..
Im a slave to the world!!!
Peace out!
:wink:
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| Big Fish : Drama : Past Life : |
| 02.09.04 (7:58 pm) [edit] |
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep. But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep. "
I saw Big Fish last night. It was pretty good! If your a Tim Burton fan you can obviously see his usual traits in this flick but you'll definitely enjoy it.
There were some parts though that made it hard to watch.. The whole chemo and cancer thing with a character and the little can of ensure, just a piece of reality that I didnt escape for the evening...
Nevertheless, it was visually entertaining and I smiled the whole way through, the main character is like this all around perfect guy..Its really funny, Im not getting into it not to ruin it for anyone..Just go see it for yourself!
Anyways, so I hung out with guys last night. It was weird, I havent done that in a long time. I forgot that sometimes guys have real convos with other guys instead of burp and fart and crack jokes all the time. There I was giving them advice talking to them about my relationships, pointing out my faults, how Ive learned from them. Good things with bad. Im not perfect and when I give someone advice I make sure and let them know I am better giving it then following through with it myself. But if theres one thing I know Im good at, its being a good listener so people like to tell me things.
For example one of the guys has a problem where he knows he is in a dead end relationship and he keeps dragging it. His biggets concern is spending money on some tickets and Valentines Day, so I got a little peeved and kept my cool.. So since Ive been on both ends of that stick, I gave him my opinion..
"When you love someone, you dont care how much your going to spend on them. Its just not something that crosses your mind. Thats the last thing you think of. Everything thats yours is theirs, you arent two people your one person. You have to learn to realize that everyday isnt going to be perfect and that every night you cant go have a nice dinner at a restaurant. Your there to support each others lives, dreams, emotions, everything, your wasting your time and hers, if thats where your mind is at. God knows if your missing out on the right girl right now"
He grew incredibly silent. I didnt make anyone mad with my advice cause they just kept asking me about what they should do, etc etc.. I felt like a modern day Mr. Phil. It was pretty chill though, I was flattered.
Also spoke with a long lost sorta kinda cousin for a while on the phone, he was like so little back then, its been 10 yrs now, and here was this man on the phone with me, freaky. Im going to Ny in May to my cousins wedding, so thats all gonna be alot of fun a big ol reunion. I get to attend yet another wedding, but I'll be damned if anyone tries to stick my hand in this one. Hells no.
Anyways, so today was a chill day, it was sports themed at work..and Im so not into sports so I rocked some stripped pants some sneakers and a basketball jersey from "Basketball Diaries". Hey I gave it a shot.
Night Night..
Im Out.
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| Top 3 Romantic Songs ??? |
| 02.09.04 (4:32 am) [edit] |
I was on my way back from driving my dad to work when I switched to 'lite' radio..Yes... I have a soft spot people, Im not all jokes and bones of hollow steel.. :roll:
By far I must say this is my all time most romantic song ever..
[u][b]Fields of Gold: Sting[/b][/u]
You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold
So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold
Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We’ll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold
See the west wind move like a lover so
Upon the fields of barley
Feel her body rise when you kiss her mouth
Among the fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken
But I swear in the days still left
We’ll walk in the fields of gold
We’ll walk in the fields of gold
Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
I guess second would be Tony Bennetts version of :
[u][b]The Way You Look Tonight[/b][/u]
someday when i'm awfully low
when the world is cold
i will feel a glow just thinking of you
and the way you look tonight
yes you're lovely
with your smile so long
and your cheeks so soft
there is nothing for me but to love you
and the way you look tonight
with each word your tenderness grows
tearing my fear apart
and that laugh wrinkles your nose
touches my foolish heart
lovely never never change
keep that breathless charm
won't you please arrange it
cause i love you
just the way you look tonight
and that laugh that wrinkles your nose
it touches my foolish heart
lovely don't you ever change
keep that breathless charm
won't you please arrange it
cause i love you
just the way you look tonight
just the way you look tonight
**Sorry Frankie Baby I still love you!!**
Last, but certainly not least, and Im dedicating my third to "Orlandofolks" aka Liz and Alan who commented on the wedding blog all anonymouslike.. You guys are on your honeymoon! Stop checking in on me Im fine.. and I dropped to check in on Garnet, shes fine I fed her, and Alan about the condition of that apt, you and I have to have a talk buddy :x .. Miss you guys!
[u][b]You Look Wonderful Tonight: Eric Clapton[/b][/u]
It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her make up
And brushes her long "dark" hair
And then she asks me
Do I look alright
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight
We go to a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel alright
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight
I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize
How much I love you
It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Alrightie enough lovie dovie stuff.. Im off to my running duties and off to the grind..
Have a lovely day everyone!
In the comments section lemme know a favorite or a few...
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| The Wedding Pics |
| 02.08.04 (8:35 am) [edit] |
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Sorry about that, got a bunch of messages telling me about the pics..Gottem to work finally.. I got to post them below, the slideshow thingie wasnt working so I had to post them directly..check them out..
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| The Wedding of Mr. and Mrs. V (w/Pictures) |
| 02.08.04 (7:16 am) [edit] |
''Wedding: the point at which a man and a woman stop toasting, and begin roasting each other. "
Just Kidding!
:lol:
Its been a looong, hard week. Both within my own personal life and with the preparation of assisting my best friend with her wedding..
Rehersal dinners, my mom, some heartbreak, fittings, work, you name it, Ive felt it.
Now its over, and Im still here :!:
So the wedding was beautiful, we arrived on time, no one forgot anything. No drama. Pretty cool.
Lets begin shall we?
My day started at 5 a.m and Im exhausted, I actually got up about an hour and a half ago at 2:30 a.m, my computer woke me up.. ( yes the time is right on this now, I fixed it, and I decided to post this today and not last night too.)
So Liz and her sister came over and my mom ( shes a pro) worked her magic on all three of us to make us look fantabulous, and she did as you'll see below in the pictures.
So anyways Lizs sister was finished so she had to go tend to her family. Liz stayed here and had some finishing touches, I went around and woke up the mensss, and we were all out of the door by around 8:45 am. Not too shabby.
So as Im driving I snap my radio on and I had left it on the rock station, so I was about to take Linkin Park off and switch to some wedding like ambiance music before Liz stopped me "Hey I was jammin to that!!" so I laughed and left it on..
We got there and started to get changed in one of the rooms Liz rented out. She had her wedding at [url=http://www.ftlauderdaleriverh...][u]The River House[/u][/url], its an old house turned into a restaurant. So it felt like it was at someones house which was pretty chill.
Anyways, so pretty much everything starts to roll from there, the photographer, the flowers, the cake, and even the groom! Ha Ha Ha..yeah ok..
So alright its like t-minus five minutes and everyones nervous and off we go down the stairs and out down the aisle and I position myself and look on and exhale.. I was petrified I was going to trip by getting one of my heels in the bricks on the floor, besides Dave said I would trip so :P. I didnt!
It was weird standing there looking on, didnt seem real. As Liz came down with her dad, her sister and I got a little teary eyed, I kept looking back at her and whispering "breathe"..lol.. Anyways, so there they were standing there getting married. Weird, but about time, its been 8 years people!
Anyways..so then came picture time and smile over here, smile over there, I didnt have time to snap my own while we were up there, so I only have pictures with my digital at the after party. The rest my mom took with a disposable, which I'll probably develop tommorrow and post on my other site... So after that we all sat down and I'm laughing with my brother and making jokes and he stops and looks at me and I notice everyones looking at me smiling, and Lizs mom walks over.. "Its time for the maid of honor to do a speech".. and I was kinda freaked and I said.."Um, doesnt the best man do that? :o "..She said "Yeah, but would you mind saying something too?". So I threw up my hands and said " Well yeah sure, I am a Leo" and everyone laughed. So I got up there and gave this speech and pointed out the fact that Dave wasnt even man enough to go first, and I said a few things to make everyone laugh a few more times...and I wrap it up with "Im about to cry... and, and, heres David!!"..and he mumbled out two sentences, literally and he was done..Punk, lol.
Besides, after my speech there was no way he could top me off anyways ..Ha!
So off to the eating and the club soda being passed around my families table, the pasta squirted everyone else at their tables too, it was war! So yeah, then some more pictures, and the bouquet landing behind me and when I turn around there it is, right in front of my feet and me just staring at it waiting for someone else to pick it up. i basically stood there and waited...People where waiting for me to pick it up, and I said " :wink: I dont want it". I seriously think Liz was throwing it as far back as she could cause thats where I was, trying not to catch it..lol..she even threw it twice.
Thanks anyways Liz.
So off to the graphitti'ing of the car, here I was putting up nice decorations ( which by the way, this was the best mans job too, lol dont worry I made sure to point it out) and off come the guys to tie beer cans and putting condoms on the windshield wipers and "Lets Get It On" and other crazy crap on the side windows , well you'll see in the pictures..I got the back window and tied bells and threw rings and stuff in the car.. Made those guys work, all seven of them..Ha ha ha..Anyways, so we snuck back over and walked back into Liz and her dad dancing to James Brown, lol then we all danced a bit and it ended nicely.
Liz freaked out over the car, giving me this hug and a few words…
and they drove off "Freaky Stylie" style..lol..The back window was mine :wink: .. Classy with some dab of naughtiness.. Here are the pics…Im done..
Enjoy!
[u][b]The Wedding in Twenty Pictures[/b][/u]
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Liz posing for me
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Liz and her dad, busting the Fred Astaire moves..
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Mr. and Mrs V
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Ah, this is err is some fine..eh... stuff.." My bro.
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Lizzie and Me.
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Liz and Alan without saturation.
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My bro and my moms.
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Daddykins and I.
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The two mennss..
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My mami and me.
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Um..yeah..
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*gulp*...errrrr.....
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Oh my god, the humanity!!
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Guilty! The few of us that got caught..
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Getting down with the boogie
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Thank heaven for little girls, well t.h. for no audio.
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Liz giving the best man some advice..
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Four pals.
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The End.. this is me, red feet, shoes off, chillaxing my buns on my pimp chair at home...
Hope you enjoyed the pics.. Comment!
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| Mama said there'd be days like this.. |
| 02.03.04 (11:26 pm) [edit] |
"Be an optimist -- at least until they start moving animals in pairs to Cape Canaveral"
Yeah, weird title..Sums up the strangeness that was my day.
So again I get up, drive daddy to work.. Then come home to work out, woulda gone back to sleep for a bit but I had mandatory overtime. ( WILL IT EVER END?).
So whatever..
Heres how to get through the treadmill thing without getting bored:
Wear something comfortable.
Put on some kick ass music.
Preset the timer to countdown.
Dont look at it.
Put water nearby, you WILL drink it.
Make sure to treadmill dance :!:
Yeah like Im the expert..anyways! :roll:
So k, after the exciting session we move on to me hauling butt to work and stopping by the gas station. I forget to get my little shakity shakes so here I am turning all the drinks around to the backs to stare at the labels and carb counts, and I can swear Im being peered at in the corner of my eye by the lady at the register. So all the cans through the glass doors are facing backwards and I start to turn them the right way so I dont get to hear it. Finally! Arizona Green Tea 18 carbs , under the radar :lol: . I walk up to the counter hand her my check card and shes still looking at me curiously, so this is how it went.
" Algo pasa?"
"No nada, pero quisera saber porque andabas haciendo eso"
"Estoy a dieta, no puedo tomar cualquier cosa"
And on and on it went for about 15 minutes, needless to say the lady is going on a diet tommorrow thanks to my notes..and still Im running freakn late.
So here I am walking out and a guy in a pick up asks
" Do you know how to get to South Beach from here?" and I pivot and like a dumbass deviated again to help a stranger..
"Sure its bla blah blah ( I dont think your following), umm lemme try that again..blah blah blah ( geez a monkey can get these directions, you still look lost), ok so you got it? "
He finally says
" No I dont think so, maybe you should give me your cell phone number in case I get lost."
And this is were the naive part comes in to the title. Im such a dumbass, he wasnt confused at all, he was just staring and trying to get my number.
I look him in the face and say..
" NO... I DONT THINK SO."
Walk back to my car and basically wanna kick my own ass for being so clueless.
Bastard. :evil:
So on and on goes my day at work, when finally it occurs to me that on my phone theres been a annoying little envelope icon from some message I didnt check. So I read it and it says " HAPPY NEW YEARS!!". Yeah guys its freakn February 4th..Ive been busy...
So I call the number and its an old friend I havent talked to in mths, so I let him know the status on everything, including my mom.. and whatever. Im working so I sked if I could call him back afterwards and I do, and he sounded like he needed someone to talk to. So we met to talk at this place that hold every single freakn memory known to my entire teenage memory. I waited there for him to show up and it was just weird how life has changed and everything there looks the same, cept the shops are all freakn different or moved on. Anywayyys, so we meet and we are chatting up the old crap about relatonships the past, etc.
The past calls his cell.
His old best friend calls, who happens to be some guy I used to have a thing with. A really big one of those type deals you just dont forget about..The best kisser I ever had...long long story.. See my friend used to be my best friends bf back in highschool and he introduced this guy to me, waaaaay back. They recently became friends again and stuff so here i was thinking it was another friend we used to have, and hes like its so and so, and I was like "um, sorry hi"..
Anyways needless to say we start gabbing and stuff and he tells me about some perfume I used to wear that he remembers me wearing, and Im in total shock, he then goes on to inform me that his wife whos read his journals and stuff knows all about it, and that she asks him if he can smell me when they are near perfume places and such.. Creepy. Made me feel weird, then he insisted on us coming over and chilling. SO i hesitated since his wife and I have never been on good terms, even before he existed, so he lays a guilt trip on me and we go over. After this phone call my friends ex gf calls which also happens to be the girl whom I used to be best friends with.. Strange strange strange..So we talked too..
So later on I caved in and we drove over there. It was cool a bit awkward but cool. He had some really nice comics that I dont have and it turns out he has the same fascination with Fathom that I do. It was nice to see him again..So yeah weird. Anyways it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Tried making some peace with her, think it went alright..I did my good deed for the evening.
Now Im tired of blabbing about what ifs and the past..
Adios
:wink:
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| Afterhours Blog |
| 02.01.04 (11:30 pm) [edit] |
"People should talk less and draw more. Personally, I would like to renounce speech altogether and, like organic nature, communicate everything I have to say visually. "
Its funny how you can sit around all day and think of a thousand things to write about on this blog...when you come home, diddly squat is what you remember..
Ok so as far as my weight loss progress goes, 14pds. I have all the girls in my unit on the atkins, we are so into it now we had to buy a fridge. Cause otherwise we'd end up gorging out on Hersheys Bars and Cortaditas and all that other good fattening stuff. So its stocked with shakes and goodies. :o . Im so proud!
Anyways, so like I was blogging about the other day they moved us to this other place on the floor that has windows.. So now I spend half the day staring out the window day dreaming.. Whats worse is that Miami International Airport is right across the highway so I sit there and watch planes leave and land. On my way to work they fly over us so close everyone speeds up a bit just to make sure..
Anyways so I see Delta and America West planes flying and I remember Oregon. Imagining myself staring out the window waving goodbye to everyone...and leaving the circus behind. ( Thats what Miami looks like at night when your on a plane).
So too many reminders of west coast, and Im into the mindset of planning my escape for the rest of the day.
Saturday I was walking out to my car wearing my raincoat ( I am probably one out of every 1,000 that actually owns a raincoat in Miami, by the way).. When I looked up overhead and tried focusing on the clouds above without getting water into my eyes and I had flash backs of Oregon. It always rained there but I could clearly see why.. So many trees and flowers to water.. So green.. Every morning I woke up there seemed like a dream, when it rained it was magical. Big Oak trees and Cedar trees and god that smell.. When it rains in the city here it smells bad. Looks bad, the grey sky matches the grey buldings and everything is like a blur.
Speaking of dreams, Im having nasty nightmares, one of many is that Im actually on a plane, and I knew who I was going to see too, and they plane was going down.
Thats about the most easiest dream I could ever interpret. The other was about some murderer
on the loose in a hospital and Im lying face down on a bed, everythings blinding white and on the overhead speaker its being announced that hes on the loose. As im listening I feel the blade cutting me up from my tail bone all the way up my spine, and when I wake up I can swear when I look back down on the bed, theres going to be blood everywhere.
:roll:
Lets move on...
Saturday, went to Lizs and played some board game called Truth or Dare which Lizs mom got for her at her bachelorette party. The game has some freaky questions like Truth :" If you could sleep with anyone in this room who would it be" and Dare: "Flash a complete stranger" which by the way was a card I got, and since only four of us were playing and they werent strangers I had to flash out the balcony. No one there thank god. But it was a hilarious game and we were majorly smashed so it was all in good fun. Liz had to fake an orgasm and Alan had to dance a slow song with David and David had to give Alan a foot massage and I had to describe a vagina to Alan..Thank god we had pass along cards cause there were some instances were we couldnt do certain dares. THANK GOD.
Todays Sunday and I worked out like a beast today and Im super sore..Hung out with Lizbitch for a while, picked her up from work and we chilled here for a bit and downloaded some tunes..
Speaking of tunes, this is a song by Sheryl Crow I just cant get out of my head.
[u]The First Cut is the Deepest[/u]
I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again (tryyy)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
'Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know, the first cut is the deepest
When it comes to being lucky he's cursed
When it comes to loving me he's worst
The first cut is the deepest baby i know
The first cut is the deepest try to love again...
8)
Thats it..Im done. Comment!
Hasta La Vista baybeesssss.
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